A short reflection on life

Photo by Gaëlle Boissonnard

If there’s anything I’ve learned in life, it’s that I don’t know what I want.  I’ve gotten pretty proficient at pushing away what I think I want, while I’ve been yearning more for what I feel I need.  I’m learning to differentiate between the two, and I think maybe it’s the difference between listening to your heart, and listening to your soul.  The heart wants what it wants and though people always say to follow your heart, it never really served me well to follow mine.  I usually end up fighting with my head on it, and my heart ends up the worse for wear.  I used to be envious of what others had, and imagined I wanted the whole “white picket fence” thing, but I’ve come to realize I wasn’t meant for that.  I think the past eight or nine years have shown me I’m more solitary now, and recognizing that brings a certain contentedness.

Certain, but not complete.  Because while I’ve made peace with my heart, it’s my soul that I still need to answer to.  And it’s getting increasingly restless.

I’m not quoting Jon Stewart in this blog, but I am going to quote a line from the song Walk with the Night by the Silencers, because it just came across my playlist and falls into place with my thoughts and the photo I’m using:

…ghosts on a wild night whisper my name

they call to me from far away…

I think those ghosts are whispering to my soul.  They know where I’ve been and where I should be heading.  They know me inside and out because they are a part of me.  I’m going to listen to them and follow my soul, because that is the only way I will end up exactly where I’m supposed to be.

 

© Dahlia Ramone: July 26, 2015

This was written for Blogophilia Week 23.8

Topic: A Short Reflection on Life

Bonus Points:

(Hard, 2 pts)  Use a Jon Stewart quote (I didn’t)

(Easy, 1 pt)  Include 'white picket fences'